First Post

Here starts a blog. I am going to try to be good and journal in this blog. I got inspired from Tarheel88. I figured that this would be a fun way to chronicle my life and then when I am pregnant or something like that to share the developments. No big news in my life right now. Mostly I figured I would start this as a reflections spot for me. For example, today is the first day of what should be my next period. I am not on birth control anymore so I am hoping I am pregnant, but I refuse to get my hopes up because I know most likely I am not and my period is just late. I really thought when we decided to have me come off of birth control and start trying that it would be a fun and exciting time. I didn't realize the disappointment I'd feel as each period came and I wasn't pregnant. I know that it will happen or won't happen in God's time but still the waiting is hard. It is an emotional rollercoaster. Daley asks me all the time "Are you pregnant yet?" I know he is just being silly, but man it makes me feel so much pressure to be. I think if by Friday my period hasn't started then I will take a OTC pregnancy test. Not crossing my fingers though since just watch the lovely Aunt Flo will come to visit again.